Monday, October 22, 2007
The Road to Christmas
I've been feeling very unsettled today. I usually get this way about this time of year as I try to make holiday plans. There are too many ideas rolling around in my head. Too many notes and thoughts written down in my journals. I want to bake cookies to deliver to neighbors; find recipes. I want to host a hot chocolate tasting party for my children and their friends; do I have the energy? I need to figure out the gifts that I'm planning on making and get started; find patterns. I'm participating in on-line ornament swap; what in the world am I going to make? There are about 200 fun sounding activities going on; which ones do I pick? I suppose I still long for that perfect Christmas. That magazine Christmas. You know the one. Everyone is thrilled with their lovely, elaborate, homemade gifts. Every nook and cranny of the house is adorned with Christmas finery. Oh wait, the people who pull all that off in the magazines have much larger incomes than I, not to mention a staff (my staff consists of a 5 and 8-year old...neither of whom are interested in perfection) to help adorn those nooks and crannies! Those magazines are a double-edged sword for me. I love them for the inspiration, but at the same time they cause dissatisfaction with what I have. They make me feel inadequate for my lack of handcrafting ability. I'm vowing now not to buy another (I've already succumbed to two) special holiday issue. Oh, this is going to be hard! But I know in the end I will end up with a much more peaceful holiday if I resist.